It's day four of my Fasting and Feasting to incorporate positive changes. Here's some notes from the exploration.
Happy
I've taken on completing things not to just check them off my to do list but to also to be able to move things forward and clear the way for new things to come in. I compiled my taxes and sent them off to my accountant, organized my finances and created a budget (with the help of a friend), which has given me more peace of mind. I've also gone through paperwork and have thrown items away or filed them away if needed. And catching up on emails and phone calls. The last two weeks have thrown me very behind in my communications.
I am also taking strides in being more effective with my scheduling and am actively at work to develop new habits and practices in this area. This is a large area for growth I am seeing and critical to my being more effective at accomplishing my aims.
Completing items is giving me more space in my mind and I know is a powerful exercise in clearing the space and energy to make room for new things to come into my life.
This has created moments of grace and gratitude and appreciating the snapshot moments of life. Like spending a wonderful evening last night with two friends from Chicago who were in town and another Chicago friend who lives in LA now. As well as phone calls and conversations with new friends I'm making here in LA. I'm present to so much love and support all around me and am moved by so much generosity. I'm also learning that the support I seek is all around me and that I merely need to reach out and ask.
It's been quite humbling. I'm the first one to jump in and contribute to others but not always as good at asking for the support that I might need. And in starting to reach out to my connections locally here in LA, I'm starting to feel more connected and grounded as a result.
Those fearful thoughts do keep creeping in though. I must admit, I'm still having some freak out moments and I have not yet been able to banish them completely. But I'm not consistently being run by them.
Healthy
Surprisingly not missing the coffee. Although still having sluggishness from detoxing my system and I was a bit of a cranky pants yesterday without it.
The balance has been that I'm eating totally clean (only whole foods and grains) and my body is feeling light from the positive effects of what I'm putting into it. I even resisted digging into a yummy dessert last night during dinner with friends.
Had a great workout with Kevin on Friday and continue to not only see the physical benefits of exercise, but am noticing the mental ones too. Keeping daily promises to myself to exercise gives me focus, purpose and a sense of accomplishment. Especially since I plan my day around this morning routine. It has also been a stress reliever in what has been a challenging few weeks.
Hot
My daily prayer and meditation have been welcoming peaceful moments to my day. My soul craves those quiet moments as my mind races so much during the day. These moments of centering myself in the quiet are blissful and I'm seeing that this spiritual workout is fast becoming as important as my physical workout to get me grounded in my day.
Still having challenges with being in a hurry, needing to know how everything is going to turn out and surrendering all of that over to God.
I guess we know where my growth areas are. :-)
I am excited to think about what my blog post will read on day 40. Positive change is something that happens over time and the journey is critical to reaching the final destination.
The key is taking things one step and one day at a time and not being in such a rush to get to the last page of the book. Good stories take time to tell and one must savor each word on every page as the story unfolds..they are crucial to the plot and the meaning of the story.
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